lots to catch up on!

wow, this last month of internship is turning out to be one of the most difficult ones! i'm exhausted. i've been getting up at 5am every day. i've only had 3 days off the entire month. this is getting REALLY old. thank goodness i only have 4 more days left.

a couple weekends ago, i spent my two off days in a row in new york to visit my friend who is leaving the country soon. we spent hours catching up because it had been almost 5 years since we really had seen each other (i saw her for a couple hours last march). and we partied at level b, which she tells me is a highly exclusive club that's hard to get into on the weekends. needless to say, i didn't get much sleep that weekend either.

this past weekend, i had 3 BBQs in a row. friday night, we had korean bbq with sam, who is leaving soon for stanford. :( saturday night, brian hosted a bbq in his courtyard with a tiki bar. he's leaving for michigan. then sunday night, joy had a house-warming bbq at her brand new shiny place, with fireworks and all.

today i had the wonderful opportunity to meet some of the NEW INTERNS! woohoo. it's weird to see them going through the same orientation we did last year... i remember being scared out of my mind to be a "doctor" and to actually be responsible for patient care. i feel like i've changed and grown a lot in one year.

i've also become disillusioned, jaded, and numb to a lot of what goes on behind the scenes in our hospital. but deep down, i still have the passion to do everything i can in the best interests of my patients and hopefully that will carry with me for the entirety of my career.