coming clean

I should be doing a million other things instead of updating my blog, but Oh Well. :)

These past couple weeks have been pretty nightmarish. The week before last, I was on call x7days. I actually had a few good nights... but the rest were painful. I was paged about every 30 minutes the entire night and still had to work full days the next day. This past week, I was back on-service taking care of the inpatients and our census has EXPLODED. On average, we have 15-20 patients. This past week, we got up to 26. And because residents have rules on the number of patients they can see each day, I'm responsible for picking up the rest. This means that I've been getting to the hospital at 6am and not leaving until around 9:30-10pm every day. And on most days, I don't have time for lunch.

People keep asking "How are you doing???" and "How can I help?" and I know that they're just being nice but really, I resent these questions. I'm actually really unhappy these days and I feel like quitting often. and there's nothing anyone can do to help, except give us more manpower to take care of these sick patients, but nobody wants to do extra time on-service.

I'm sure it's not this bad all the time but I'm exhausted. Hopefully my next post will be cheerier because this isn't who I want to be.