every day i think about posting

i can't believe it's almost june already. i survived a 5-week month at an affiliate hospital. it was rough... there were a couple deaths. and i attended by first-ever funeral for a patient post-call; talk about an emotional mess. it was a humbling experience. it made me realize that sometimes Life is just really really Not Fair. and no matter what we, as medical professionals, do to "save" lives, the human body is so fragile.

on to happier news... i matched at UCLA for my hematology/oncology fellowship! All that stress and anticipation and second-guessing has finally been resolved! when I first found out over the computer, I was shocked. In a weird happy but sad and disappointed but excited sort of way. I know it doesn't make any sense but that's pretty much how I felt. I was happy that I matched and sad that I'll be leaving Chicago. I was disappointed that I didn't get my first choice. But I was excited to be moving back to LA where my family is and where the weather is perfect all year round. now, about a month later, I'm mostly just EXCITED.

Things To Do in Chicago Before I Leave:
-go to a Cubs game (more on that later)
-go to the Taste of Chicago
-enjoy as many plays as possible, and especially go to something at the Shakepeare Theatre
-go to Ravinia this year

what else?!? I miss this city already!