ignorance vs knowledge

is ignorance bliss? or is knowledge power?

it's weird being a "healthcare provider" and finding out that my grandfather has metastatic cancer. i feel like family members are turning to me because i'm a "doctor" but at the same time, what do i know about oncology?!? i'm not even a REAL doctor. (my excuse that i'm just a student has now changed to i'm just a resident!) so i'm in this uncomfortable middle-ground where i know more than the average lay-person but not nearly as much as a cancer specialist. it makes me feel empowered but at the same time, totally helpless in the face of such an ugly disease process.

here's a picture from S.Korea... it seems like such a long time ago now. i like to look back and remember that peaceful feeling. thank god for memories.